After eight months, suffering from the worst Bipolar relapse I can ever remember, today as I write this short update, I am finally able to say, I have recovered. The effects of this relapse have scared me for a life time. Physically I am left looking older, mentally I have experienced the worst Bipolar had to throw my way. In thought, I am renewed spirit, happier and full of fight. When you suffer, what I can only describe, simply as a break down, or relapse if you want to be technical, it really does shake you to the core. The enduring legacy of this period of illness, will be the amount I learned about a condition, that in relative terms, I am new too. The frightening truth, is I have experienced more in such a short space of time, than I have done in a life time.
Unlike so many who suffer from the effects of Manic Depression, daily, I was lucky to have such a large network of friends around me, at such a crucial and dangerous time in my life. Each person played their part in getting me to where I am today. Together, collectively, they have shown me just what the best in human nature, has to offer, even in the bleakest of circumstances. I have gained so many friends that to list them all would take a life time.
The people around me have suffered equally and more. I have an inbuilt ability to forget the worst aspects of my life in recent times. The brain has an enduring ability to shelter, people like me from trauma wonderfully well. While I forget, others learn to live with the after effects, and for that I am truly sorry.
Forever Enduring Cycles, is a new chapter in my life. I am strong enough to deal with much now and as this positive time, becomes, at least for now, more positive, I hope to document this next cycle in my life. Like everyone, I have no idea what is in store for me, but as I have learned over time, accept the bright times, they make the dark easier to accept.
Much love to everyone who was there!
With family, Hrvatska and Bosnia 2014!